tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2032826860946460882024-02-19T00:18:17.914-08:00I'm Traveling with the Werewolves, of courseI Write Stuff and Go Places.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.comBlogger150125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-34163361017449241052013-05-16T09:41:00.000-07:002013-06-28T08:50:31.344-07:00On Being Ready<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>
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I was lucky enough to see Neil Gaiman speak about his book,
<i>Neverwhere</i>, at the Chicago Public Library a few years ago. He answered a lot of
great questions, one of which was about his book idea for <i>Coraline</i>. It may have
been <i>Stardust</i>. I don’t quite remember. Let’s go with <i>Coraline</i>.<br />
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What I do remember is how he spoke of the idea. It was a
perfectly good one (as evidenced by the many awards it won, as well as
the hit movie and musical based off of it), but he waited to write it, because
sometimes, you’re not ready to execute the idea the way you've imagined it in your mind. Sometimes, he said, the idea
is better than you are. But you mustn’t despair. Give it time. Give it
patience. Keep the idea in your mind, and someday, you will be ready.</div>
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I think this goes back to what Ira Glass said about art. “There
is this gap,” he says. “For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just
not that good… We know our work doesn’t have this special thing we want it to
have… It is only be going through a volume of work that you will close that
gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions.” In other words? Practice, practice practice. Making good art only happens after a long while of making bad art.</div>
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I think Neil and Ira are coming from similar places. This
gap Ira speaks of isn’t just for beginners. I think every artist has the
occasional (or not so occasional) struggle based on the gap between what they
want to achieve and what they know they’re capable of.</div>
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I heard Neil Gaiman’s words. I read Ira Glass’s advice. But
I didn’t get it. Not really. Not until recently.</div>
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See, I have tons of ideas in my head. Loads of them, really.
For books, movies, songs, short stories, poems. Hell. I think there’s a play or
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And last week, I wrote a song that I’m incredibly proud of.
I feel like I’ve been writing such crap music, but I finally grew proud of my
own work. And it was only through the process of writing crap music, realizing
it was crap music, and playing other people’s good music that I got to where I
am.</div>
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The thing is, my journey’s not even close to done. I still
have so many song ideas that will not work until I reach the next skill level.
Stories that I don’t know how to tell yet because I don’t have the writing
muscles to flex. And that’s fine. Because all we have to do is continue on.
Push through the doubt, the fear, and trudge onwards.</div>
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If you make good art, you can't grow complacent; there's always tomorrow, and you have to work to keep whatever you've earned and get even better at what you're doing. If you make bad art, don't let it get you down; there's always tomorrow, and tomorrow is a new day. It might help you bring a better piece of art into the world.</div>
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Give it time. Give it patience. Keep those ideas in your
mind, because someday, you’ll be ready.</div>
Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-91533595660729205582013-04-28T20:24:00.003-07:002013-04-28T20:24:42.174-07:00Good God, it's been a while (and witches)But I'm back. For this post, at least.<br />
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Back from Korea. Back on at Open Mic. Back in Chicago. Back with my friends. Back in the dating scene. Back at a desk. Back in a cubicle.<br />
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Back writing.<br />
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I've been working on a lot of things, trying to take the publishing game more seriously. Right now I'm on a musical high. You know those songs that make your adrenaline pump harder than a red bull at three am on finals week?<br />
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I've got it. Right now. I can't stop watching the video, or listening to the song. It makes me feel alive. It makes me afraid, and I love it.<br />
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I've got some blog posts brewing. Some about healthy eating, about what Korea was like, about Game of Thrones, about cubicle life, about roommates, about my gorgeous new apartment. But for now, here's the song I can't stop watching. Watch with caution. But definitely watch:<br />
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Until next time, friends. It's a long way down. Goodnight.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-19611382587532547342012-08-19T04:30:00.004-07:002012-08-19T04:30:45.602-07:00Five Good BooksI like books. I've been reading quite a few of them recently. Here are five of them, in case you need something to read.<br />
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1) <i>The Fault in Our Stars</i> by John Green<br />
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Not that I ever doubted this book for a second, but I have this weird process with John Green's books, and it's similar to the way I read Neil Gaiman's stuff. I tend to put it down in the middle for weeks on end. I get bored. The ending always grabs me again, and I finish the book with newfound enthusiasm. The Fault in Our Stars took me instantly into the story. I never got bored. I felt every emotion ever. I cried a little. I laughed a lot. It was brilliant, and whether or not you like YA or have ever read a John Green book before, you need to go read this book. Right now.<br />
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2) <i>Bossypants</i> by Tina Fey<br />
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I'm not usually one for autobiographies. Especially ones by comedians. See, the same jokes that can be so funny when told onstage can fall flat and lifeless on the page. But Tina can write, and it was so interesting to read about how she broke into the business. Her life story isn't even close to over, but her journey thus far is definitely worth a read.<br />
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3) <i>Is Everyone Hanging out Without Me (and Other Concerns)</i> by Mindy Kaling (AKA Kelly from The Office and one of the main writers for the show)<br />
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As brilliant as Tina is, I think Mindy's story was better. Her jokes were marvelous and made my friends and I laugh out loud (I read this to a few people while lounging around on the beach). Both she and Tina started as writers (and still are, to my knowledge), but Mindy seemed to be better at it. I think Tina's a better performer, but Mindy does writing like nobody's business. At one point she actually apologized for not being Tina Fey, and I wanted to give her a hug and let her know that no one wanted her to be. Mindy, if you're reading this (and I know you probably aren't), I love you just the way you are.<br />
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4) <i>250 Things You Should Know About Writing</i> by Chuck Wendig<br />
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I spend a lot of time at work reading during my break, and this book is easy to pick up and read for a few minutes at a time. Wendig writes in a conversational style. He's witty, sarcastic, and straight to the point. It feels like a man's book to writing, and I imagine the hard copy is all black and blue. I imagine Bobby Singer (from Supernatural) would read the audio version of this book. I enjoy it, and the tips are practical and entertaining.<br />
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5) <i>The Golden Lily: A Bloodlines Novel</i> by Richelle Mead<br />
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This is one of my candy books. I don't mean to say that it's not as worthy as other books, but the way I read books like this is WAY different from the other four books on the list. I buy it, open it, and have problems putting it down. I immediately fall in love with the characters, develop crushes, and become invested. All within the first paragraph. I loved Vampire Academy, and I love this new series, too. Richelle Mead is just good at writing badass stories with badass characters. Granted, her adult series don't interest me in the slightest, but you can bet I'll buy every YA book she ever writes within days of its release.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-16506477302097935032012-08-12T09:24:00.002-07:002012-08-12T09:24:58.588-07:00Mudfest: A misadventure in KoreaWell hello, dear reader! I'm sure you've been wondering where I've been, but wonder no longer! I'm right here, staring at my computer screen, seemingly unable to write a coherent blog post.<br />
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It's not as if I haven't <i>tried</i>, it's just, well, complicated.<br />
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Do I bare all? The ups and downs, the glaring disparities between my dreams and reality? Or do I sugar coat my words until you see a pretty picture of a life I've lived abroad, blurred by an instagram edited shot of a buddhist temple. So vintage. So cute. So untrue.<br />
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I've been battling with myself, and have finally settled on putting the excuses aside to tell you about one of the more interesting misadventures I've had here. That way, my words are true, but the story itself is the sugar in my teacup of experiences here.<br />
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Metaphors getting you down? Let's dive in then.<br />
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This misadventure takes place at a notorious event here in Korea. It's called (as you may have gathered) Mudfest, and it's exactly what it sounds like. A festival entirely devoted to mud. Put a few pools of mud, a few thousand foreigners, a beach, cocktails in plastic bags, and a sense of sexual liberation on a scale previously incomprehensible to man, and you've pretty much got mudfest.<br />
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What's that? It sounds like Woodstock? No. No. Take away the mud, add some music, and <i>maybe</i> you get Woodstock. Well. Minus a few Koreans.<br />
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Anyways, I found out about this event more than six months before it happened. It's kind of a big deal. If you're a foreigner in Korea, and you don't go, people think there's something wrong with you. A few friends and I booked a trip with a local travel company, in May, amping ourselves up for what we were sure would be a life-changing (or at least drunken) weekend full of frivolity.<br />
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The train ride took an hour and a half, and it was drizzling when we got there. After making our way around the city, we passed our hotel over three times before figuring out where it was. We settled in, making our peace with the lack of beds (there were blankets and pillows, though), and changed into our mudfest gear.<br />
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Foreigners were <i>everywhere</i>. Military, teachers, and tourists were covered in mud, drinking cocktails from plastic bags that hung around their necks. We immediately got some ziplock cocktails as well, because it was that kind of weekend. Then we bought tickets and stood in line. Since the theme of the festival involved mud, many did not bring their phones, and we promptly lost each other.<br />
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Though my friend and I wanted to find the others, we made our way through the mud pool, as well as a mud cage, where we stood in a cage as mud squirted from all sides. Thoroughly covered in mud, we found our friends and went for the mudslides (no, not the alcoholic beverage. Actual slides with mud instead of water).<br />
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After a while, my tolerance for being dirty waned, and we cleaned up at the hotel. A few hours, a nap, and a meal later, we headed back out to dance on the beach. However, we ended up in a club. In our bathing suits.<br />
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The club itself seemed sketchy. It was two flights of stairs above a 7-11, and the line extended all the way down. A twenty dollar cover did not appeal to me, but obliging people gave us their bracelets as they left, and we snuck in without paying the fee. Win! We danced for a while to a brilliant mix of old Christina Aguilara and hip-hop, and then walked back towards where we thought our hotel was.<br />
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Instead of our hotel, we found street vendors. One stall was full of beautiful bracelets, haunting South American music, and a Peruvian man named Marco who eagerly chatted me up when I started talking in Spanish. Ray (a teacher here whose family is Mexican) and I talked to Marco for a while before Lauren (my fellow foreign teacher from work) wandered over with kiwi-flavored soju.<br />
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We went to the shore, and decided to go for a swim, even though it was past one. Korean police lazily patrolled the waters, but we snuck past them and swam for a good twenty minutes. Which was when we met Mr. Crazy.<br />
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I call him Mr. Crazy in lieu of a harsher nickname, trust me.<br />
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He didn't seem so bad at first, but with bleach blond highlights, a plastic parka (it wasn't raining), and a beer in his hands all alone on the beach, I should have known something was up.<br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Him: I'm so bored I'll watch your stuff.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Us: Um, thanks.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Him: I missed mudfest last year. I would have gone if I'd known there would be so many hot foreigner women.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Us: That's nice.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Him: I wanted to get a caricature of myself in Hogwarts robes with my house crest above it.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Ray and Lauren: Weird.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Me: SO COOL. What house are you in?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Him: Scientology.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Me: That's... not a house.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Him: It's the house I made up. I'm a scientologist. But I'm not a crazy one like Tom Cruise.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Lauren wanders towards Koreans with fireworks.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Ray: That's interesting.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Him: Yeah.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Me: *This is weird*</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Ray turns away.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Him: *Lewd and awkward comment that involves a sexual reference and is meant to be a pick-up line*</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">Me: *Laughs* That's nice.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Courier New, Courier, monospace;">I back away.</span><br />
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It would actually be inappropriate for me to write what he said here, so I'll just leave you all to your imaginations. Meanwhile at the hotel, a person who shall remain nameless had lady-friends in the bathroom, and they were making their own lewd noises. While other people tried to sleep in the other room.<br />
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It was a weekend of dirtiness, both metaphorically and literally. I had fun, though, and that's what counts.<br />
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It's my birthday next week! WOO!<br />
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Listening to: All of the Mumford and Sons new songs. Especially "Ghosts That We Knew."<br />
Eating: Healthy dieting shakes. And lots of vegetables and green tea.<br />
Reading: Just finished <u>The Fault in Our Stars</u> by John Green. It was AMAZING.<br />
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Maybe I'll write about one of my many other misadventures, but we'll see.<br />
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13 weeks till home.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-79170326829175030422011-12-01T09:30:00.001-08:002011-12-01T09:37:06.439-08:00NaBloPoMo 22: DONE and monthaversaryPrompt: What did you learn from doing NaBloPoMo?<br />
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Relatively little. At least if we're just talking about what I learned from writing these blog posts.<br />
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In the past month, however, I've learned quite a bit.<br />
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I've learned how to say right, left, straight, here, and thank you in Korean. I've learned how to use chopsticks better, and how to order shabu shabu at a Korean restaurant (and to cook it at the table). I've learned how to get home and downtown and how to stand in line at the movies. I've learned where to find food and where to shop for shoes. I've learned how to play a new song on the guitar, and I've learned how to do a load of laundry when the washing machine is all in Korean. I've learned which days foreigners drink and where.<br />
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I've learned how to plan for classes and what to do if there's extra time. I've learned how my students respond to shouting, laughter, and fake tears in class. I've learned which students are the most belligerent, which have the most skills with sarcasm, and which ones like Harry Potter enough to tolerate my constant references.<br />
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Mostly I've learned that I know nothing here in this strange yet familiar place. But I have learned a lot about being alone, despite the fact that I am almost never by myself. I love the new people, but dear god it's hard to live day after day without being able to turn to one of my best mates and tell an inside joke.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-80355350920473896032011-12-01T09:24:00.001-08:002011-12-01T09:29:50.818-08:00NaBloPoMo 21: Bedtime RitualsPrompt: What is the last thing you do before bed?<br />
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Easy. I daydream about things to write about. I always hope those will turn into lucid dreams. I love lucid dreams. When I was little I could lucid dream all day, but when I hit twelve or thirteen, I lost control. Yes, that's probably a metaphor for some insecurity or another.<br />
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I also listen to music. A lot of it. I have a special mix for falling asleep. There's a lot of Enya, a bit of chill-out stuff. Some people fall asleep to TV. I fall asleep to music. Whatever works, right?Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-66819115492031913692011-12-01T09:20:00.001-08:002011-12-01T09:23:40.411-08:00NaBloPoMo 20: HeirloomsPrompt: Describe an heirloom that has been passed down through generations of your family.<br />
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Other than insanity and a knack for divorce, I can't really think of anything.<br />
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Taught one class about Haikus, so let's write one to explain my current emotions:<br />
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Hiking trip cancelled,<br />
Lonely for cheesy romance,<br />
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Eh. I'm the type who sucks at secrets, and I wear my heart on my sleeve. If I've gotten someone a really good present, I'm not good at hiding it for long. So even if I may have intended to save the present for a while, I usually give it to the person early. Womp.<br />
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Also, this was a foolish prompt, so let's talk about Thanksgiving:<br />
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I've always taken the holiday for granted, but despite its less than familial origin, Thanksgiving is about family. And food, and abusing our bank accounts and digestive systems and football. But mostly family. My family is flawed and quirky, but they're mine, and I miss them. I also miss my second family (you know, those people I call friends. Love you guys), and so being gone for this Thanksgiving wasn't the easiest thing. Working on Thanksgiving was pure torture. Eating squid soup on Thanksgiving was the end of the world.<br />
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I do love Korea, but November 24 was the catalyst for premature homesickness. Time goes fast here, and I'm learning a lot. Every day is a surprise, and it's usually a good one. But one thing I've learned here is how much I've taken for granted. Not only in terms of cultural differences (though I could write a post on American showers, or why kimchi really doesn't need to be eaten every meal including breakfast). I guess I've always harbored a secret hatred for familiarity. Anything that I knew well enough, like the route to school, or the inside of my freshman dorm, was the focus of my scorn. Now I'm nostalgic to walk through the arch on the way to class, or trudge up the hill to my old high school. I'm worried this is a sign I'm getting old, or maybe I'm just old enough to have accrued enough memories to truly understand what nostalgia means.<br />
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Anyways, my bad mood was conquered today, not through booze, but through food. Much healthier, right? A group of foreigners put together a Thanksgiving potluck. After a few weeks of rice, soup, kimchi, and ramen, my senses went into overdrive at the sight and smell of mashed potatoes, green bean casserole, turkey, pie, macaroni and cheese, stuffing, and broccoli casserole. My stomach tried to quit before my taste buds were sated, but I conquered the food. Guys, be proud. So Thanksgiving happened, finally. Even if it wasn't a lazy Thursday afternoon with the people I love driving me up the wall, it happened. Enough.<br />
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Wait. Did I mention the amazing company? There was amazing company. I found a lot of people who love Love Actually, and I even found a few Doctor Who fans! WIN.<br />
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So Happy Belated Thanksgiving, and may your Black Friday endeavors not end in bruises, broken bones, or credit card debt.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-74316443700559910022011-11-26T04:25:00.001-08:002011-11-26T04:41:45.867-08:00NaBloPoMo 18: IsolationPrompt: Do you enjoy being alone? Would you rather be alone or with people?<br />
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Easy. People. Any day. I'm a Leo, an only child, an extrovert, a Gryffindor. Long story short, I crave attention the way a vampire craves blood.<br />
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But I think I set high standards for my friends. No, I'm not that pretentious ass who claims to meet those standards, but I do set them. I love people, and I love meeting people, but I'm so judgmental. It also takes quite some time for me to feel comfortable around someone. Months, years even. That doesn't mean I won't ham it up within moments of meeting someone (because I have, do, and will continue to act like an idiot in public). It just means that given the choice between a large group of strangers, and two or three friends, I'll choose the friends. Any day of the week.<br />
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Much love.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-4875432419879741762011-11-25T05:11:00.001-08:002011-11-26T04:25:10.349-08:00NaBloPoMo 17: Life-changing Music<i>Prompt: Write about a piece of music that changed your life forever. </i><br />
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I can think of two artists, in general, that made a huge impact on my life. But let me say (as if I haven't said it enough) that music changes my life on a daily basis. Er, what I mean to say is that music is a consistent source of positivity. I wake up to it. I fall asleep to it. I write to it. I <i>write</i> it, read it, study it. Of course, I don't love it enough to play guitar four hours a day, but I do love it enough to listen to it for at least four hours a day. And I don't just mean on the radio, or in the stores downtown. I mean purposeful, headphones or at-home listening.<br />
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<b>1) <u>Once</u> starring Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova</b><br />
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These two artists are made of pure genius. Glen is from Ireland, and Marketa is from the Czech Republic, I believe. Glen is in another band, but (correct me if I'm wrong, world) when the two started collaborating/dating, they were asked to star in their friend's movie. It was no big deal. Shot on a camcorder. No one was a professional actor. Won an Emmy.<br />
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Changed my life. I went to see it with a friend the summer after I finished high school. It was showing in the theatre downtown reserved for indie movies, and everything about the movie blew me away. It wasn't melodramatic, but it made me cry. The two main characters were never even named. I remember the exact moment I fell in love with the movie. Right here:<br />
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This song is amazing, but it's even better watching it within the context of the movie. The scene never fails to give me shivers. My friend and I left the theater and immediately headed to the nearest store to purchase the soundtrack, which was co-written and performed by Glen and Marketa. Then we spent the night talking about life and listening to the CD on repeat.<br />
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Some of my best memories are belting it out to this song in harmony with my platonic other half as we road trip. Good times. I started getting into alternative music as a result of this movie, and I can say it's one of the best decisions I ever made. Iron and Wine, Fine Frenzy, Ingrid Michaelson, etc. Oh, they're all amazing.<br />
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<b>2) Julia Nunes, YouTube sensation</b><br />
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I stumbled on her after watching a clip of her guest appearance on College Humor. It was funny, and they sang Chumbawumba, so I obviously had to watch. Then I listened to some of her covers. I thought she was ok. Then I heard this song:<br />
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Oh my god, I can't even explain how wonderful this song is. It connected to what I was writing at the time, which was creepy in the best way possible. But more than that, it felt right. Everything from the lyrics to the melody to the rhythm amazing. Her voice is so unique and lovely. The song above is my favorite by her, and in a tie with Ingrid Michaelson's "The Chain" and Ghost's "Welcome Home" for my favorite song ever. I love how deceptively cheerful it is.<br />
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Anyways, Julia also led me into a shift in my music preferences. I started listening to Amanda Palmer, Anais Mitchell, and other people, especially YouTube artists. I also learned the song on guitar. It's my absolute favorite song to sing, even though I know I'll never do it as well as her. Her unabashed singing helped me to gain confidence in my own voice, and I also felt enabled to write original music after listening to her beautiful lyrics.<br />
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Anyways, yeah. Julia Nunes and Once. Check 'em out.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-4575624704192964422011-11-25T05:06:00.001-08:002011-11-25T05:10:35.970-08:00NaBloPoMo 16: LuckPrompt: What is the luckiest thing that ever happened to you?<br />
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I feel like I have to be careful answering this question, because I might seem self-deprecating if I say something like "getting into NU." Of course I feel like I deserved that admission letter, but I still feel lucky as hell.<br />
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Luckiest thing that ever happened to me?<br />
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In the recent past, I was lucky to get an invitation to go to a middle school concert. Hear me out. See, I was visiting my dad in Texas, and his coworker, who is insanely awesome, invited me to her son's concert. I shrugged and said sure, and we left. Afterwards, she introduced me to her coworker, who was an English professor. This coworker asked me what my post-college plans were, and I mentioned the teaching abroad idea that I'd just discovered the day before. Turns out one of her students was already here in Korea on her third year. She hooked us up over facebook, and that's all she wrote.<br />
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So, I'm here in Korea because I got invited to a middle school band concert.<br />
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Lucky as hell.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-14821268126070067612011-11-21T05:29:00.001-08:002011-11-21T06:21:31.409-08:00Drinking in KoreaIt seems that NaBloPoMo, NaNoWriMo, and No Shave November are not the only things going on this month. 30 Days of Indie Travel is happening too. The prompt for today struck me as appropriate, considering my recent adventures, so here goes:<br />
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I've been in the midst of a marathon I never intended to do, and it just finished last night. My tolerance, as most of my friends know, is low. Like, super low. If I drink on Friday, I usually won't drink on Saturday. Once a week is enough for me, so right now I feel like hell. Why? </div>
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New topic: Teaching<br />
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I'm starting to settle into my schedule as a teacher, even though I've yet to receive my alien card or get a foreign bank account. Planning is becoming MUCH easier, which is great considering how much I stressed out over it initially. I get along well with most of my students, and I think they understand that I mean business. Unfortunately, today I had to yell at one of my younger students, and I hated it. He later told the co-teacher that another student wasn't acting mature enough in class (he said "baby" for the record), but I can't help but feel that his excuse wasn't good enough. I was really upset by his complete lack of respect and awareness in class, especially considering how respectful my worst students are.<br />
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I do love teaching, despite that rant. My job has its pros and cons, but at the end of the day I've got a pretty sweet deal. I'll feel better once I have my first paycheck, though. Right now I feel like I'm on a glorified vacation (though I'm sure some haters would agree with that title). Once I have a steady income, then I know I'll have that grown up, independent feeling.<br />
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Also I'm craving Chipotle.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-26909887689515150432011-11-20T09:47:00.001-08:002011-11-20T09:58:32.407-08:00NaBloPoMo 14: HappinessPrompt: What has been the happiest moment of your life thus far?<br />
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I'm really starting to hate these prompts, for the record.<br />
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When I read the third Harry Potter book and I realized there was a spell that required you to use a strong, happy memory, I thought very hard about this. My mind drew a blank. Ever since then, I've been on the lookout for happy moments, and I've taken the liberty of posting them below:<br />
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1) When I got accepted into my dream school.<br />
2) The morning I finished the rough draft of my first book.<br />
3) The day I performed at state for solo ensemble.<br />
4) My first time reading each Harry Potter book.<br />
5) Road tripping to Wisconsin with two of my best friends.<br />
6) Graduating from my dream school, and seeing Stephen Colbert speak at my graduation. Also singing I'm Yours with my friend while we lined up before graduation.<br />
7) Hearing certain music for the first time (I know, this sounds super ambiguous, but the feeling I get listening to certain songs for the first time is inexplicably wonderful.)<br />
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I can't narrow it down, and I'm missing some, I'm sure. But these memories are the best I can think of right now, and trust me, they're pretty great.<br />
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Whatever. I answered the dumbass prompt.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-75133771361190255722011-11-20T09:41:00.001-08:002011-11-20T09:47:32.165-08:00NaBloPoMo 13: CrushOh. My. God.<br />
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I do not want to do this post. I don't. But I promised to do every prompt this month, so Kira's gonna put on some big girl pants and suck it up.<br />
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Prompt: Make a list of everyone you've had a crush on in your life, then choose one and describe him or her in great detail.<br />
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Erm, let's not push our luck, prompt. I'm not making a list on this blog, because this shit's on the internet, and I don't want anyone hunting me down. But I just made one in my head. It's not overly short, but not too long (that's what she said). Let's pick a guy. And....<br />
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I'm still too paranoid to even say his name here, so let's just call him...<br />
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Ok, I just don't have the cojones to talk about anyone I had (have?) a crush on. Sorry. Arg.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-68278452747416658472011-11-20T09:34:00.001-08:002011-11-20T09:40:19.839-08:00NaBloPoMo 12: AdulthoodPrompt: When is the moment you leave childhood and enter adulthood?<br />
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Gratuitous quote: And that is the story of how Tristan became a boy. But this is not the story of how Tristan became a boy. This is the story of how Tristan became a man, a different task altogether.<br />
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Neil Gaiman wrote that better, and the actor who played Magneto (whose name I shamefully don't remember) said it better. Still, the fact remains that becoming an adult is tough business.<br />
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But I don't necessarily buy into "becoming an adult." The word adult fills my mind with horrific notions of a life without laughter, a life burdened with too many responsibilities, of sweating every day to fit into a mold you may or may not buy into. You know the mold I'm talking about. 2.5 kids, steady job in a *gulp* cubicle, husband or wife that you mildly like, expensive house and car to show off to your neighbors. A poofy poodle skirt and dinner on the table at six.<br />
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Oh. Adults? What?<br />
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I guess I'm still trying to figure out if I ever want to be an adult. Shrug.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-84857368575111525252011-11-20T09:24:00.001-08:002011-11-20T09:34:30.549-08:00NaBloPoMo 11: Favorite PlacePrompt: Describe a favorite place.<br />
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I could use this post to talk more about Korea, but I won't.<br />
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Maybe it's the late hour, but I'm having trouble describe my favorite place. Ah. Got it. I'll try a snippet of narrative:<br />
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I wake up early. Too early. It's cold, but part of my brain refuses to believe it, since it's impossible. The sky outside is dark, and for just a few minutes, there is silence. Then I start to hear birds chirp as the coquis fall asleep for the day, and my roommate begins to toss and turn in her bed. Once I'm ready, I go downstairs where there is anything but silence. People laugh and joke as the old caretaker walks in and out with more papaya, pineapple, and eggs. An old, off-white cat hobbles in, and I can tell she's seen better days. Still, her bright blue eyes are wary as she waits patiently for a scrap of food to fall to the floor. The scent of coffee and baking pastries permeates the air, and even though I'm nocturnal, for once I am in love with the morning.<br />
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Alright, I've written better, but for some reason, Hawaii is just the best. I realize that it's a complete tourist trap, but I probably had the most fun on that trip. We hiked three miles to a green sand beach, walked through botanical gardens, and ate the best breakfasts I've had in my life. I loved most everything about Hawaii, and I hope to go back there someday.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-13750995785036080232011-11-20T08:32:00.001-08:002011-11-20T08:54:00.433-08:00NaBloPoMo 10: Facing FearsIt seems I've fallen off the map once again, and for that I apologize. But life in Korea is a constant adventure, and, well, you can just call me Frodo.<br />
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It's appropriate, though, that on the two week marker I'm writing a blog based on facing your fears, as I've been facing quite a few of mine lately. The question asks, "Have you faced fears and overcome them?"<br />
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One thing I've noticed in Korea is how much they covet youth. Men will dye their hair so no one can tell they've gone grey. Women will wear mountains of make up to look younger. Yes, I know this trend exists in America, and probably everywhere else on earth. However, it feels more prevalent here. Maybe it's just the culture shock talking, but nonetheless, I made a conclusion about youth that seemed really deep. The more I think about it though, the more obvious it seems.<br />
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Youth is not coveted because of wrinkle free skin or thick, luscious locks. On the surface, yeah, youth is all about the sexy looks. But underneath it all, I think youth is held on a pedestal due to the endless possibilities. Anything can happen. You can change your entire identity, go anywhere, do anything if you only put your mind to it. There are so many choices to be made and adventures to have. There's a world of information to learn, and for the young, there is a whole life to learn it.<br />
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I think half the reason people end up so old and bitter is because they don't take risks. To me, taking risks means facing your fears, head on. Now that I'm done with the scheduled part of life (high school, college), I'm more terrified than I've ever been. So in that cop-out respect, you could say I'm facing my worst fears by just living day by day.<br />
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But I digress. I have faced fears by taking a lot of risks. Applying to Northwestern, auditioning for choirs, joining comedy forum and performing on stage, all of that put me in a sorry state, but it was completely worth it.<br />
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The biggest risk I took was choosing to live alone, on the other side of the world. Far from my friends and family, and nearly everything else familiar. But that was only the beginning. Each day here I face my fears. Not in the melodramatic, ohmylifeisterrible kind of way. Just the knowledge that I could easily fail in a lot of new ways.<br />
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Stephen Colbert gave an amazing speech at Commencement a few years back. After a solid few minutes of jokes, he mentioned that in improv classes, you learned to say yes to everything. Otherwise, the scene won't move forward. The same goes for life, he said. Say yes to everything. And sometimes you'll fall flat on your face, but most of the time you'll discover new, amazing things about the world and yourself (he obviously said it better).<br />
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So that's what I'm trying to do here. Say yes, seize opportunities, take risks, and get messy! Magic School Bus, anyone? No?<br />
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Sigh.<br />
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Anyways, I try to face my fears about the language barrier, getting lost, making a fool of myself, etc.<br />
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My conclusions thus far support Colbert's advice. The more I say yes, the more people I meet, the more I learn, and the more I enjoy life.<br />
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I guess this post was a bit disjointed, so let's go back to the short answer. Have I faced fears lately?<br />
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Hell yes. But I'd rather travel to Mordor than stay in the Shire all my life.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-23202712249941814242011-11-13T08:06:00.001-08:002011-11-13T08:13:19.015-08:00NaBloPoMo 9: Make a WishA few days back was 11:11 on 11/11/11, and the world went nuts. I'm one of those suckers who loves making wishes on 11:11, not only because I think that if there's even the slightest chance it could work, why not try it? I also believe that if you spend two minutes a day concentrating on what you want, what you really want, and focusing on it and how wonderful it would be if those things were to happen, well then those two minutes weren't really wasted.<br />
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Granted, if you just wish to win the lottery all the time, you probably won't get much out of it.<br />
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But focusing on dreams and goals is always a good thing, and keeping them in the forefront of your mind helps keep you motivated and always aware of your true desires.<br />
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Once I realized I wanted to go to Korea, I wished for that. Sometimes I wish for other people, depending on how they're doing. Sometimes I whisper my 11:11 wish as fast as I can, to cram as much in as possible. Mostly I wish to get published, to write full time and live a long, fulfilling life as a traveller. A lot of the time I also wish to find that soulmate type who will love me and who I love back.<br />
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Typical wishes, I think. The desire to find someone to love, something to do, and aspirations to reach is part of the human condition, I think. So is the hope, even if it's silly, that wishing on a star, or a certain time of day, will help us fulfill our dreams.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-48146310715178875522011-11-13T01:02:00.001-08:002011-11-13T08:04:38.607-08:00NaBloPoMo 8: PassionWhat is your passion, be it secret or otherwise?<br />
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Well if it's a secret, I'm not going to tell you know, am I?<br />
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Luckily, my passions aren't really a secret.<br />
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I love writing. I love forming words in ways they have or haven't been put together before, to form ideas and stories and people.<br />
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I love discovering new worlds and characters through reading.<br />
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I love singing songs and plucking clumsily at my guitar to create sounds that may or may not be passable.<br />
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I love laughing so hard that my stomach hurts, and making people laugh.<br />
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I love traveling to different places and learning about different people and how they live their lives.<br />
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I love learning new things about literature, people, history, philosophy, science, and so many other subjects. I never want to stop learning.<br />
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I could go on and on, but I'll stop after one more: I think, even only after a week, I may love teaching.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-53882525896318239062011-11-13T00:05:00.001-08:002011-11-13T01:01:40.565-08:00NaBloPoMo 7: Childhood HomeWhen was the first time you realized your childhood home was not like other homes?<br />
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I realized this fairly early, because for the first seven years of my life I lived in a house/barbershop. The barbershop was in the front, and if you walked through the main office, there would be a living room, two bedrooms, and a kitchen. The set up was untraditional, but very fun. I had great hair during that time, too. Awkwardly, the building was also a bar. It went like this: bottom floor/basement, bar. Top floor, barbershop and house. My mother's boyfriend at the time owned the entire complex, and did a combination of bar tending and haircutting. Never at the same time though.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-44402459740721523412011-11-13T00:01:00.001-08:002011-11-13T00:04:52.500-08:00NaBloPoMo 6: TraumaHas anything traumatic ever happened to you? Describe the scenes surrounding the event.<br />
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Wow. How inclined am I to not answer this? Sigh. Alright, here goes. When I finally gathered up the cojones to start my first book, Animus, my computer was stolen when I was about a quarter of the way through. I was devastated and cried, not because I'd lost an expensive piece of technology, but because I'd lost over fifty pages of writing. I rewrote it all, though, and replaced my dell with a mac. So even though it was traumatic, I ended up stronger, a better writer, and the owner of a much more sophisticated computer.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-67197176894574898152011-11-12T23:58:00.001-08:002011-11-12T23:59:56.750-08:00NaBloPoMo 5: Healthy BalanceHow do you balance family time, relationship time, and your work life?<br />
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I don't. I really don't. Sometimes I get very absorbed in what I'm writing and I forget to come up for air. I hope that when I'm in a relationship, he'll understand, or have things to do while I work. If he has ambitions and hobbies of his own, it'll work.<br />
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My friends are awesome, and sometimes we multitask bonding time with work time by having writing dates. That way we're supporting each other as well as our writing. It all works out in the end.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-76037296779598181782011-11-12T23:54:00.001-08:002011-11-12T23:56:40.144-08:00NaBloPoMo 4: Pen vs ComputerSorry for the long absence. Turns out life in Korea takes some major adjustments. But more on that later. Right now I'm churning out some belated NaBloPoMo posts. Prompt number four asks:<br />
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When you are writing, do you prefer to use a pen or a computer?<br />
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Computer, hands down. It's faster and easier to get to multiple writing projects. I type way faster than I write, and as a leftie, my handwriting has never been anything more than chicken scratch.<br />
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Also my computer can serenade me as I write. Double whammy.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-203282686094646088.post-67364933720171053622011-11-02T23:23:00.000-07:002011-11-02T23:23:26.597-07:00NaBloPoMo 3: Writing and MusicI'm drained. I'm done. No, it's not this posting every day thing. It's packing. I'll be whining considerably until it's over (tomorrow night or Friday in the wee hours of the morning), so I'll make this post as quick and painless as possible.<br />
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Today's prompt is all about music. Do you write with music? What have you listened to lately?<br />
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This subject is very near and dear to my heart because I started out as a music major in college. I've written music related to my characters (though not as conspicuously book-ish as wizard wrock), and I sing and play guitar. I'm addicted to music like a lot of women are addicted to chocolate. Trust me, guys. That's saying something.<br />
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So yes, I write with music. I had a playlist for chapter 13-15 of Animus when I was writing it, because it was exponentially darker and emotional than the rest of the book. I had so much hard rock and depressing music, it's unbelievable. Not that I don't normally love hard rock. It was just a bit of an overdose.<br />
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My favorite artists are probably Ingrid Michaelson, Julia Nunes, Florence and the Machine, and Linkin Park. Mind you, I also love Regina Spektor, Glen Hansard, Incubus, Owl City, Death Cab for Cutie, and Amanda Palmer. I just know the aforementioned bands much better. If they have a new CD, I'm committed to it, just because I'm usually sure I'll like it.<br />
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Anyways, I'm starting to rant. Here's a music video of one of my newer loves, Laura Marling. I can't stop listening to this, so I hope you enjoy it:<br />
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My favorite line is, "I want to be held by those arms." This song begs a short story. I swear it does.<br />
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Also, my fourth post will probably late, and from Asia. Apologies ahead of time. Wish me luck.Khttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17241382049837882466noreply@blogger.com0